oh man.i am just so pissed with myself.i already told myself tt i shouldnt care,and i really thought tt i didnt care,but guess what,I CARE.i know i shouldnt care cos she doesnt care,and i cant care to care abt that,and i really dont care,except that i care!

o_o ok,did anybody understand that?anybody at all?ferget it =p

after school today went to videoworld with ws jules raine kim and fiona.u noe those machines where u haf to twist the knob then the toy comes out?yup.everyone except me and julia suddenly became ABSOLOUTELY OBESESSED wif it.thy were like a bunch of little kids.lorraine and her chipmunks and ws and her tofu.lol.i think tt altogether they blew abt 15 bucks on those stoopid lil things.regretting yet guys?: )

anyway,went to de library after that.me and lorraine were like laughing like mad over all sorts of lame stuffs.as usual.i was going nuts over the EXCUUUUSE ME thing.cos i was imagining going up to her and saying tt while waving a tissue packet in her face.ok.fine.so i have weird fantasies.i spent the whole of today dreaming up another one.but it has a tragic-cal ending instead of a happy one this time.decided to be realistic for once.

sheesh.still havent seen titus nikki alfonso foo.

OMG OMG OMG I LOVE THIS BLOG.*bookmarks it*i can use it for all my stalking needs.MUAHAHA.
lorraine,we haf another thing in common.BOTH OUR CRUSHES RAWK AT POOL.ok,should i have said tt?hums.kay then,forget i did.(omg i cannot get over this blog i am going NUTS)

talking to titus now.talking abt all sorts of lame stuffs =p

went to joolies's church today..and the edge ysterday.(boxers.bowl.cough.)and i think im gg for the planetshakers thing.yay!

in the com lab now.sitting between jules and lorraine.clare is being extra once again.ppssh.

i lurf my hair.its not poofy anymore.haha.

havent seen her yet..(lorraine:cant wait to see her reaction)(julia:julia says hi)

TMR GOING EDGE!!yayayayay i like edge.s' so fun.but im not ready to jump yet.lol.oh yar,but in de morning got the stupid bishan thing which reminds me tt i havent bought the shirt yet so i haf to go buy tonight.erm..yah.

argh!the stoopid maths spring test.i confirm score one digit mark leh.below 5 most likely.sheesh.then also got the ying yong wen test..sigh.
today's her birthday.haha.ok tt's another kind of pointless fact.

ers.dunno whad to say.i think i suffer frm short term memory or something cos i can really rmb whad i did today..

going senile..

haha.guides tmr.LOL.ok that is so not funny but right now i cannot stop laughing cos of the stupid yearbook thing lah.me and lorraine found manymany hilarious things inside.*cough cough nudge nudge*i really hate my sec 1 pic.toot like whad.argghhhh.

I DONT WANNA GO FOR GUIDES..HORSESHOE..NOOOOO...

haha!haha!foyer foyer foyer.*starts foaming at mouth*

argh.guides is like floating irritatingly abt my mind.i'm getting sicker and sicker of it by the second.i wanna try and escape again wanshee!!just tell tt sadist tt we wanna join rec tennis or sumthin.and then if lynette doesnt get in to drama she can join too.YES I AM SUCH A GENIUS*cough*

hey wanshee,i just got ur testi.UR THE SPOILT BRAT???ws,u had a right to act tt way,and anyway,ur not a spoilt brat in the first place,i am.thank god u still want me as ur bestie.*hugs*

heh.tt was the best thing tt happened to me in 2 days.

woke up yesterday feeling really really depressed.basically bcos of all the crappy stuffs tt's been happening.and i was just crying and crying and when my tuition teacher came she just took one look at me and went,"oh my god u look miserable."and she was probably freaked out cos she was explaining molecules and i was sniffing away.

then after tt went to orchard cos i had to buy cny clothes..(sorry net my mother said i couldnt meet u there)and nicc was also there so we met up with her lorh.and in the end bought this red and white skirt,and a pink shirt with a rose brooch thing-y on it.usually shopping and talking to nic makes me happy but ysterday there was like this storm cloud hanging over my head.oh well.finally got my seventeen.i've recently bcome very obsessed with my horoscope cos off tt totally zhun one.

*clears throat*
"this month you finally get the recognition you deserve.on the 17th,your ruler,venus,makes a wonderful aspect to jupiter,the planet of oppurtunity-so even if you're the kind of taurus who shuns the spotlight,you will be secretly delighted that ur name in now on everyone's lips."

wtf.allmy february horoscopes say tt my 'efforts have been recognised'and stuff like that,but dont u see?my efforts have already been recognised and now ignored.obviously she doesnt give a fuck abt me so why should i give a fuck abt her?at this point i feel boxed in and all i want is out.but its not just some kind of light switch i can turn on and off ok?i just cant deal with this stupid love-hate thing.if she hates me i wish tt she would just come and bloody tell me.it's fine,at least i wont be wondering anymore.omg what am i saying,it's not fine,it's not...

wanshi:

i am so sorry.i really feel like a crappingly bad friend now,and i know i am anyway.it's not that we were leaving you out on purpose,but its just that sometimes i really really have to talk abt j and i know that you are not interested in this kind of stuff.i dont know what to say..except that i'm really sorry and thank god ur such a great n patient friend.nxt time i see u,we can talk abt jay zhou ok?=)
sorry again and pls forgive me.

-elc.

1.30 - 1.45: Patrol Corners
1.45 - 2.00: Roll Call
2.00 - 2.15: Flag Raising
2.20 - 3.45: Dance
3.45 - 4.00: Break
4.00 - 5.00: Footdrill
5.00 - 5.10: Change
5.10 - 5.25: Flag Lowering
5.30: Taps

NO!!!!!wanshee,there's footdrill leh..for one whole freaking hour..haiz.and we're probably gonna haf to do the stupid horseshoe in the middle of the field again?its so so bloody embarrasing lor.sheesh.luckily there's dance or i'd die..*coughs*and tt means having to bring retarded uni. and slacks again.I HATE SLACKS!!!grr.

and i seem to be having some sort of bad neoprint spiel lately...first the with lorraine tt ones(stupid machine!!)and then ysterday..when we chose the wrong mode and looked as if we were underwater!then summore i look so toot.i used to love neos but now its like im nt really interested leh..omg..better take some nice ones soon...yarh.*nods*

martin:o..kay.

and today was like retarded.i just realised tt i use tt word alot but its true anyway.my whole life is retarded.laughing all the way thru school.especially after school.(ok dunno if i should write this cos ya nvr know who might read,right?haiz,heck care lah..)
me julia lorraine and evonne were gg home together and me and lorraine were playing with von's camera phone lah.then mmph(haha,y'all getting tired of this yt?)came out.and we ended up boarding the same bus.we sat on the upper level and she sat on the lower level and during the ride we were just like talking and stuffs.but then when we were abt to reach parkway L got this retarded idea to take a pic of mmph.so when she got off the bus,we *tried*to take a pic(notice tt i said tried?)but von's phone lah.so damn slow reaction,then in the end we got one really really nice pic of the back of someone's shoe.sheesh.

and tt stupid chi song os stuck in my head..all cos of mrs ho..
wo zhen de hen bu cuo...WoRHx!!~
sorry.just suddenly felt like talking in cute language.

woops!finally went to the edge ysterday.too bad fion dear didnt come =( awww.
but it was really really damn cool.at first i felt so extra when evryone else was like jumping arnd and i wanted to but then its like im not even a christian lorh.but the service(is tt what its called?) was really...sad.and i felt like it was meant for me.cos the guy was like talking abt how there may be something in ur life tt u think is wrong..and u know tt something has to change inside u but u dont want to change.or even want to want to change.or want to want to want to change.(?!)yarh but anyway i just felt all weird and started crying(ha,so now raine and net,u cant say that u havent seen me cry before.)
i wanna go there every sat but then my mother says i cant..argh.

eh julia!im talking to ur tt one right now!oh yah..ur trying to forgot him right?kay forget i said anything (: (oh damn he's annoying..)(oh man he sucks!)

anyway,can u believe what happened today?its like the retardedness of yesterday times two hundred and ten.for those of u hu dont know.ITS ALL JULIA'S FAULT!!during recess..she saw charlene and started blurbering abt how i wanted to meet -mmph- and all tt.which is *fine*true,but nt in tt retarded way lorh.cos charlene started talking abt -mmph- and -mmph-(ok.this is getting annoying so shall jst use j frm now on.)walked right behind her and charlene was like : J,my sister's friend wants to meet u..or sumthin' like that.and i was totally flipping out ok!me and raine were like going mad but everyone else at the table was just like: *stares quietly at J* oh my god.i totally gave her the impression that i am a total effing spaz.i didnt even hear her but according to jooles she went:oh.hi.hi.
prob. said hi 2 times cos i wasnt listening?god,im such an idiot.

SHE THINKS IM AN IRRITANT!or crazy.or something. something bad.

i mean is tt despo or what??but in the first place julia was the end who caused it to happen so..*pokes jules with a fork*

sigh.after school went to pizzahut with kimberly wanshi lynette lorraine evonne julia plus fiona.played truth or dare.fiona had to ask this blur-do for his phone no.and the look on his face was SO SUPER FUNNY.lol.

she,hates,me.bye.

JULIA!!please do not ask your sister to talk to her..i beg you..im probably just some irritant to her by now.and i hardly think she will like take the time to come and talk to me??sheesh.

OH MY GOSH!!KIMBERLY YOU ARE SO DEAD I SWEAR I AM GOING TO POKE YOU TO DEATH WITH A SAFETY PIN(?!)oh fuck man..i am now definitely a freaking stalker in her eyes now.sigh.oh my GOD(i dun care.)my whole life has gone down the DRAIN.crap crap crap.

OMYGOD!!lol lol lol.im like in the com lab now with wanshee and raine and..HAHAHA!!she's like soo funny lor.oh my god.cant stop laughing everytime i look at her.

haiz.later got 4 hours of girl guides!!lalala...*sings*fishpoo,fishpoo, and chicken shit...

urgh..mock ug tmr.

oh man.ysterday's luck must have worn out.today get so much stuff to do.and i got drenched while walking home today..sian.went to parkway with kimmy to get the stoopid maths excercise bks.wanshee.bang ni mai le.

hurh.improving my chinese.

hahaaaa today must be MY lucky day.kind of.
a cute -mmph- talked to me,had lots of fun at joolie's church, and narrowly escaped death by carrot juice bcos PIANO WAS CANCELLED!!woo!shaboogie.

anyway,jool's church is full of nice and retarded ppl.i saw her that one already.cute meh?ok ok shall say that he's cute for her sake.and the girl tt he likes also not that chio..2 inch thick layer of make up one lah..summore hair so fake.mmm.

youth was soooooo funny.cos we had to act as someone frm the bible,and it was just like very very funny lah.hur.

later gonna get more belated christmas pressies also...so..maybe it really is my lucky day.

heya.changed template template temporarily.ws is gonna make me a new one!yay!

hmm.come so early for what i also dunno.kimmy come soon,im scared!!er ok.anyway..also dunno what to update.lame hor?

hmm hmm.

back to school!!

quite sian-ded.moved place again and i'm no longer beside my beloved door.hmph.(damn that mrs ho tay.)and i have already succesfully succeded at SCARING E JUNIORS.they prob all think that we're like freaks or something cos they were just staring at us in this quiet..staring..way.yah.i still feel like a sec 1 leh.the sec 2-ness has not affected me yet.sheesh.

anyway after school went to bugis with nette and vonne.neos!haha.saw so many weird guys.spore is full of them.even saw this guy tt looked like JAY CHOU LEH.

haiz.cant stand the thot of my heavy bag tomorrow and sitting at my sucky place -_-.the only person i can talk to is like lorraine and mrs ho is always LOOKING AT ME!!i wish i could tell her that i reformed liao.i dont even fold ankle socks anymore ok??yah,blabbering.

konichiwa evryone.me and martin jst wanna say happy new year to u all.bleck.

in the american club now with kel and nic.i saw clare just now.was like kinda..weird?haha.gg back to school soon.cant wait.does tt come as a shock?i seem to be the only one eager to go back there.actually if nt for her i wont wanna go back le so..cough.bye!