hey wanshee,i just got ur testi.UR THE SPOILT BRAT???ws,u had a right to act tt way,and anyway,ur not a spoilt brat in the first place,i am.thank god u still want me as ur bestie.*hugs*

heh.tt was the best thing tt happened to me in 2 days.

woke up yesterday feeling really really depressed.basically bcos of all the crappy stuffs tt's been happening.and i was just crying and crying and when my tuition teacher came she just took one look at me and went,"oh my god u look miserable."and she was probably freaked out cos she was explaining molecules and i was sniffing away.

then after tt went to orchard cos i had to buy cny clothes..(sorry net my mother said i couldnt meet u there)and nicc was also there so we met up with her lorh.and in the end bought this red and white skirt,and a pink shirt with a rose brooch thing-y on it.usually shopping and talking to nic makes me happy but ysterday there was like this storm cloud hanging over my head.oh well.finally got my seventeen.i've recently bcome very obsessed with my horoscope cos off tt totally zhun one.

*clears throat*
"this month you finally get the recognition you deserve.on the 17th,your ruler,venus,makes a wonderful aspect to jupiter,the planet of oppurtunity-so even if you're the kind of taurus who shuns the spotlight,you will be secretly delighted that ur name in now on everyone's lips."

wtf.allmy february horoscopes say tt my 'efforts have been recognised'and stuff like that,but dont u see?my efforts have already been recognised and now ignored.obviously she doesnt give a fuck abt me so why should i give a fuck abt her?at this point i feel boxed in and all i want is out.but its not just some kind of light switch i can turn on and off ok?i just cant deal with this stupid love-hate thing.if she hates me i wish tt she would just come and bloody tell me.it's fine,at least i wont be wondering anymore.omg what am i saying,it's not fine,it's not...