how is it that a perfectly good day can turn into a total bitchin' nightmare?maths first period i was totally high.smilin to myself all the way.genevieve asked me if i was going nuts.yeah in fact,everything was just fine until bloody GG started,and ferena totally took me by surprise by her question.

is it true that the 'whole world knows'?
if it is,then fuck.i never wanted for it to be this way.but oh look,i've already been stereotyped as just another infatuated freak.and ferena just had to keep on talking about it all the way,telling me this and that,all kinds of depressing stuff.in the first place,how is this getting spread around?why would she even bother telling anyone?
ferena just had to rub it in my face right,that i dont stand a chance at all.
well i knew that from the start,so just leave me alone.

and now meryl's been telling me even more depressing stuff.i dont even know whether to believe all this but..if it's true what else can i do but accept it?

shit.why cant i ever just like someone without everything falling apart again?